Wednesday, March 16, 2005

BETRAYED!!!!

Juz when I can't feel love around me...fed up with my work, some dumb ass had came by to sprinkle salt on open wounds. I'm helplessly in more painz!

Here's what happened:

Recently, this guy, B, has been chatting up with me on the phone. And often this gal, G, will appear in our conversation. We dun have much common frenz anywayz and apparently B and G are good frenz.

So there was once, we were talking abt G. I forgot what triggered me to tell B what my frenz had said abt G. I clearly remember saying that my frenz tink that G is a FLIRT. Also, very clearly stated that this conversation is STRICTLY between us!

Of coz, you'd guess by now what that B did. He obviously din bother abt me....went to tell G that I told him that my frenz commented that she's SLUTTY! *fuming in rage AGAIN* The moment I tink abt this incident....I feel like tearing B into pieces. Bet u din know that he's all so casual abt this incident. He said frenz shld be open to one another. LAME EXCUSE!!! I was so pissed off, almost shouted into the phone and he can be so cool, trying to divert my attention to other topics. He can even tell me that he'll still be my fren if G choose to distrust me.

What will u do if u encounter this?? I shld explain why I'm so offended.

1) B promised not to divulge anything we talked abt. In the end?? I'm betrayed!!! Why am I so stupid to even trust someone who is not even close to me?? *angry with myself* Secondly, I'm not very much closer to G too. And wat wld she tink abt me?? Even though itz not me who commented that? All this while, I like this gal as my fren. In fact, I will not believe others remark abt my frens coz I choose to believe them as well as my own heart. I'd only focus on my frenz' good pts...okie!?

2) SLUT never ever did come out of my mouth. Itz such a disgusting noun to use. If I ever use that word.....the person I'm referring to, muz be atrocious. Anyway, i prefer to use BITCH. Heh.

3) G had been hurt a couple of times by others' words. What will she think of me?? Esp when I never wanted to hurt her. All thanks to B. He scarred my frenship with G. He even pulled my fren into this shit. Even if I dun judge others, they'll still judge me, rite? This misunderstanding will only get bigger.

When I relate this incident to my close frenz, they gave me some "ruthless" suggestions to get back on B. Like shifting all the blame to B, post B's pic in here, disclose B's secrets blah blah.... I choose not to do anything. Deep down I wish I could, but it wld only be in my fantasy world. Not to forget that I'm a Character coach and I shall practise the character of 'Forgiveness'.

Others have hurt me but making their lives difficult is juz not my forte. I'm not the typical revengeful Scorpion. Itz has been such a long time since I felt betrayal. The last time was during my sec sch days. The darkest days that changed my life. That was also the time I learn to be strong and mature.

This unhappy happening will make another lesson of life. After blogging this, and complaining to my close frenz, I'll throw it behind me.

Words of advice: No matter how tactful u are with ur words, others WON'T BE!!!!!

PiGz ^(oo)^ _{10:35 pm}

Sunday, March 13, 2005

How often do I get praises??

Went out with Sian and her frenz for a fantastic movie -- Lemony Snickets A Series Of Unfortunate Events. I love the movie. Jim Carrey's superb! The makeup artists too! =P

Sian was asking her fren, Sharon, how many bf she had b4....later they turned to me for an ans too. I signalled a "0".

"Isn't she great?" exclaimed Sian. That's a ironic praise. Then two of them carried on the discussion. Sharon commented that I'm pretty and wondered why I nv had a bf b4. In my mind, I was rolling on the floor laughing when I heard that. Me? Pretty?? Is that a consolation??

So, after some hoo-haa, they concluded that I have high expectations on guys. Esp to Sian. She always ask me to lower my standards. Why not ask the guys I like to do so?? =/ Maybe I dun deserve good guys?? Even those I like?

PiGz ^(oo)^ _{11:06 pm}

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Yippie!! There's progress in my jogging. After 2 weeks, I'm able to jog 85% of the journey without having to stop!! Previously, I'd stop every now and then to walk a long distance to catch my breath (actually slacking!).

I'm very pleased with my performance today! Hmmmz..... Issit bcoz I got more motivated after a emo turbulence?? Crap.

Anywayz, from tmr onwards, I'll meet Jill up everyday to jog. Hope I can run to the 100% tmr!! =P

PiGz ^(oo)^ _{12:28 am}

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